2025.12.03 log + notes
today the sadness blob was still trapping me, i tried the usual strategies to get out, but bleh
but! for 20 ish mins today i meditated and i felt very friends with my mind, like not even focused on doing good meditation but just like . sitting w my mind like a really good friend, like being friends with the ball (i rly love tennis it's one of the most beautiful things to me other than music and people), etc.
it reminded me of burbea and i went through some of his interviews (etc) and i was like whoa i love this guy. he rly rly loves meditation wtf. he loves it as much as i love tennis, and probably even moreso bc he's spent yearsss with it long-term