corbin learns deep okayness any%

[2025-11-27 at 19:33] note

situation --> neutral sensations --> button/gap/wtvr --> sucky experience eg sadness (reaction) --> stories, feelings

or is it

situation --> uncomfy sensations --> (gap) restlessness, squirming, "i have to leave" --> (reaction) coping mechs, stories, feelings, distractions, etc

and we wanna question the "do i rly have to leave?" which is upstream of the "reaction"


or is it like (cf. cold shower)
uncomfy sensations --> flinching


i think it's like .
we wanna question the prior that we have to flinch, we have to thrash around

but it's like .
it's weird bc idk if we're questioning the action of deciding to leave, or the thing that's saying "i need to leave"
or it's like rly related .?.?.??

UGH idk even what im saying rn it feels so fuzzy
IDK WHAT IM SAYING
WHY CANT I BE PRECISE 😭


lemme think abt it in cold shower terms

get in cold water --> cold sensations --> uncomfy experience, tensing, resistance, squirminess, flinching, "i need to leave" --> decide to get out of cold water

at some point in here there is some "gap" and some "button" or "reaction"

i think the point is perhaps not only "do i rly need to get out of the cold water?" without also questioning the "do i rly need to flinch/tense/resist?"
i think we question both ..?